I go back to work tomorrow. I probably could use some more time off, but that just isn't an option right now. I really don't want to go into what's behind all of the reasons why it isn't an option because the political maneuverings and interpretations of policies, regardless of how clearly and directly they are stated, make me more depressed and cynical.
It didn't hit me until yesterday of exactly how drained and exhausted and depressed I am after all that has gone on in the last 2 1/2 weeks. Yesterday, I felt slammed by reality.
My dad's death still doesn't seem reality yet. But, the emotional and physical toll became plainly clear yesterday afternoon. No particular event triggered the realization. I sat down with a cup of coffee and a smoke yesterday afternoon, and it was there.
I should make a call to my doctor's office, I suppose.
It's about 10:15pm, and I would like to be getting ready to head to bed. As I'm going to be up all night the next two nights at work, I need to get back on my "night shift sleep routine." Hopefully, I can last until at least 3am tonight! It would be very helpful for the coming couple of days.
I have to pick up my check tomorrow. I will probably end up babysitting tomorrow. Gabe has been especially on this week. Because of the behaviors, I kept him today while his brother went to the sitters. If he keeps it up, he or we may not make it until next Wednesday when we get the results of his behavioral eval.
I have my coffee. It's time to relax. I think I may play some games online and then start on a winter sweater. I have two new ones completed for summer. I HAVE accomplished something in the last 2 1/2 weeks, though looking at my house, you wouldn't know it! LOL
May post more stuff later. The night is still young!
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