Danger! Thoughts Ahead

I had made a photocopy of my horoscope for today and had intended to bring it home, post it, and blog about it. The photocopy is lying on the desk in the nurses' office along with my September schedule.

It said that I should consult two of my friends who knew how to think in order to shed light on current problems as three heads are better than one.

I had immediately thought of my friends, Genny and Al, that I referenced in my last entry. Too funny.

Upon realizing that I had forgotten the copy of the horoscope, I decided that I would put off blogging until tomorrow morning and spend some time crocheting tonight.

In the quest for Tunisian crochet hooks, I logged back onto the computer and headed to eBay. I found a few sets that interested me, other than in price. LOL Some of the sets were quite reasonable. I may purchase one next week. I decided that I would go ahead and cyber skip my way on over here and go a-blogging anyolwho.

I went into work for four hours this evening to finish out the day shift. It was nice to go to work after spending the week babysitting three grandchildren with the "stomach flu."

I have found myself sleep-deprived this entire week. That is such a miserable feeling. It's hard to believe that I went around for years feeling like this when I was working night shift. It is no wonder that I became reclusive and the depression did nothing but get worse.

I was looking at job postings for one of the hospitals and found a hospice liaison position. It sounds interesting. The hours are generally the standard 8to4:30MondaythroughFriday. (I cannot believe that run-on word was not flagged as having been misspelled.) Good benefits. The hospital is the one a block from my house. Nice to be able to walk to work. I also saw a position doing pediatric home care through the children's hospital. I enjoyed pediatric work. However, so many of the children I took care of had such a poor prognosis that it was much like doing hospice work. In some cases, it was indeed hospice. Those cases were hard. I took a break from peds after losing three babies in the span of 366 days. My Dad's ICU nurses and I were talking on the day that we took him off life support. They were amazed that I had done pediatric hospice. And, my mother informed them that I got attached to all those babies and cried when they died. I took a break, not because I could not do the work any longer but because I could not bring myself to look at another tiny coffin.

Hindolo told me of dead bodies being piled in the streets to cause traffic to slow and veer in order to make the vehicles easier to attack. He related that statement without any hint of emotion. I cannot begin to fathom the atrocities of war. My friends who served in the war in Viet Nam relate horrific accounts with a similar affect. They have survived hell while I mourn the loss of three babies.

Well, that was a buzz kill for certain....

I had to stop taking my allergy medicine for a few days. My nose is so dried out that I have scabs inside it. I am wheezing and about to use my inhaler. I hope the pollen count is down for the next several days.

I think I'm going to head back to my textile reality and do something while I ponder the can of worms that I have opened in my head.....

Onward

Spent last night with the guy. Exams were finally over, and books, papers, laptop, and anything else to do with school had been put out of sight for the next couple of weeks.

It was so nice just being with him. I told him that I had missed him these last several days. He understood, and his reply to that statement was interesting. You cannot sacrifice the future because you don't have your priorities correct now.

I love that he has those "good" answers. To the question of whether he preferred me with or without makeup. "Makeup does not change what is on the inside." However, I'm sure there will come an argument where I will be most unhappy that he has those "good answers," and at that time those answers will not seem so good! LOL

I don't argue, really. Unless it is something worth arguing over. My particular litmus test for argument is that if it is something that I will not be upset about in two weeks, it isn't worth arguing over. I will debate on anything, but I will not argue.

I am crocheting as I compose this. Not a good combination of activities for multitasking, I'm afraid. I'm working on a wool afghan/blanket (I haven't decided how the design is going to go yet, so who knows how big it could get.) for charity. It's going to be very pretty. Why should something for charity not reflect your best effort?

The man doesn't understand the inclination to artistic endeavor at all. The concept is completely alien to him. He showed me photos and post cards from his trip to Edinburgh and London. I said that I would like to take some of the photos and enlarge them and collage them into a piece for the wall. He asked how. I began to explain and quickly lost him.

We share an appreciation for architecture so the abstract insight is there. The mechanics of why and how that it would occur to someone to think about doing these right-brained things, however, was never encouraged to be developed.

It is most interesting to interact with a thinker who, while having an appreciation of the abstract, does not comprehend the mechanics of the abstract. He is quite logical in his though processes, very left-brained. He is able to extrapolate the abstracts from the information or data presented to arrive at a set of logical possibilities and conclusions.

My friends, Al and Genny, are both thinkers and artists. Most of the thinkers that I have known over the years have very artistic or right-brained inclinations. I can only conclude that it is merely a cultural difference that causes his brain to not perceive the abstract but have an appreciation for the abstract.

He told me of a friend he was raised with whose parents had some education. The parents encouraged his friend to explore art and creative endeavors. The friend can look at a photo or a picture and tell you what it is exactly that makes it a great image. He sees things that most people don't take note of.

That is why I have to conclude that his wonderful mind has no inclination to the abstract side of the coin; the exploration of such concepts was never encouraged, and perhaps even discouraged, to be developed when he was young.

I should close this here. I relented and took a Flexeril as my back has been miserably painful for the last several days. My back may not be feeling much better at this point, but my brain is too hazy to notice whether or not there has been improvement.

I Am Soooo Mad......

Just did some quick checking...

I send this feed over to my Yahell 360 page; they have not updated the RSS feed for 12 days now. Oh, they just make me crazy! I suppose I will have to post yet another blurb on the 360 page that there is drivel to be had over here, for those inquiring minds.

The guy takes his last exam tomorrow/this morning at 8am. Microbiology. Then, he leaves to go out of town to visit friends Thursday.

Can you say pugnacious pouty princess?

Not really.

He needs to take some time to get away and visit friends and then get ready to start it all over again in two weeks.

Besides, if I were to have a problem with it, it would make me more a shamefully selfish shrew. And, that I'm not. LOL

School starts tomorrow morning for the older three grands. I'll just have the two little boys again, so maybe Gabe will settle down and start being nice to Jonathan again once he realizes he has no one else at home to play with.

Gabe starts preschool in a couple of weeks. I can see him being the only preschooler being suspended from school. About the first time he head-butts another kid, calls the teacher a "stupid ass" and starts spitting on the floor, they will be calling me to come pick him up.

I sent him upstairs for a time out this morning and was a "stupid ass asshole." I don't know how my ranking got so high. When his mother called at lunchtime to check and see how everything was going, she was impressed by my increase in rating.

It's 12:20am, and I have to be out of bed in about 6 hours. Guess I should forego this here and get some sleep.